problems one after another

i decided to tell her on thursday after my attachment to bugis.... decided to to go back GWC to place the punch card and at the same time tell her my final decision... 31march will be my last day... however today when i reach the store, i saw kamachy typing the schedule of japanese visit and on the 6 they will come and on the 7th march, they and helen khoo and monica will all come... so i change my mind. well i shall help till 7th march.... make up my mind and was very determine to do so.... then when on the way home, kamachy tell me something which make me feel miserable... only miserable can explain my feeling at that time. she told me that i was nominated for the service excellence silver award this year.. i'm like:' are u joking?' why must good things happen when one person heart is dead... i finally put down all my feeling. i finally let go of all my emotion. i have no more feeling to the people there. i'm happy that i found a new job. a job which can allow me to have more time to study, more time to rest and get back to the normal sleeping pattern. i finally manage to look on a brighter side. now i'm having a second thoughts again... should i let go of this good opportunities? this is a very rare opportunity. should i let go? the worst part is the award is around sept time. which means another 6 more months... how can i hold 2 jobs at the same time. April will the final year. the most critical year. i still have one CCA. how can i handle all this things? things are getting out of hand. CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO...

ending for something that should be ended

today cold storage called me up for interview... kinda of surprise cause i thought it will be hopeless liao.. but they afternoon called me and ask me to go down for interview... went for interview and next tuesday going to start work liao... should be happy right, but somehow i cry when i reach home.. so much mix feelings inside me... so many happy memories... so many unwanted memories.
at harbourfront... when vivo city opening where edwin and john work until no time to smoke. then suddenly no sales then eileen so stress until keep eating.. chinese new year we run the sales until so tire... i had a bad sore throat and john keep making fun of me. because of my family problem, john stay to make sure my parent didn't come to create troubles... knowing so many nice people like jia jia(my cute mei), chito, edwin, alan(i'm sorry for keep throwing temper), ismail(i'm sorry for being so irritating), uncle chong(my best uncle who will keep chicken skin for me every time i work), ah shun( i'm sorry for giving bad attitude at the beginning). some of them i might have miss out but these people make me realise and change me alot.. the time when we make our t-shirt for supermeet... unforgetable sia
then at central, how i got my darling and sweetheart(both are gals btw and we are not les). eating the caramel ice cream and sitting at the river side... how i smell like miso soup the whole day... how we laugh until we are crying... how Ube make nice onions for us.... i miss ube, tiffany, huishan, ah shun, william and riz... all of u are so good to me
then my last station.. great world city... how i get use to the environment.. got to know one of my schoolmates who is also working there.. how much i miss geraldine and finally can work with her again... how we ran the chinese new year sales until so tire.... working until 1am during first day of chinese new year...
the happiest moment is smoking with edwin and john... my 2 good good area in charge and supervisor...
but still i miss those time alot. i know that those are only memories and things wont be the same anymore, but because of all this nice memories, i stay in yoshi for so long.... its time for me to leave but i really duno how to tell geraldine.. she make such a great effort to bring me from central to great world city, yet i'm going to leave... i'm really sorry...
tuesday will be a new start of mt part time career.. i'll earn more money... i will spend less time to travel. i'll have more time to rest and revise... really hope that everything will goes well after tuesday......... no, everything will goes well after tuesday... learning might be hard but i'll make it de.... but why am i still crying now?

should i leave?

went for cold storage interview on wednesday.... yet till now still no reply... i went there for part time cashier position... haizzzz.... ytd something unhappy happen... this really make me realise that there is no point continue working in yoshinoya le.... so what if i got the crew leader? so what if i'm the super crew... so what if i have good counter service? i have wasted my 2 years working for yoshi as cheap labor le. and i have enough of it le... time to go and look for higher pay job le...
monday if cold storage still no reply, i shall go NTUC for interview. i dun want to continue wasting my time working there le. i want to make good use of my time working for money and not for emotion... i'm tire of all those le. i know every manager has been good to me, but i really can't stand it le. i have enough of it le. within this month, i must find new job.... i start new job...
school time table is out yesterday and i realise that in year3, i really dun have as much time to work le. i still need to buy that PDA which cost 500 plus... i still want to change my handphone... if i continue yoshinoya, how am i going to buy all those things?
new time table really very draggy. long long days... i wonder how much longer can i hang on. physically tire... mentally i'm tire too... i'm dragging everyday... every morning drag myself to wake up, drag myself to work... then work until so unhappy, what for continue this kind of life... i'm going to give up

picturesssss.

so long never update my blog again... firstly, i'm here to upload all the pictures taken recently.... thanks connie, adeline for the cakes... thanks yunru for the chocolate, thanks jia for the cute cute tortoise.... thanks so much

EaTiNg

the time now is 1244am and i'm eating chocolate cream cakes with whipped cream. thanks adeline and connie for the whipped cream...
yesterday so busy... morning attachment (last day) so sad.. then went for the hygiene course assessment. after that rush to meet yunru and had our dinner at burger king.. then we went shopping... reach home watch DVD until 2 plus and end up today late for work again....

decide to look for another job this holidays.. there are too many reason behind this decision... there is too much unhappiness which i think that there is no point continue to be there. waited for 1 year plus le. To them, they think that they need me a lot. but the things they do, make me feel like i'm just another staff. They say they short of staff, but why still want me to go bugis for attachment? She say she has done the PA and she lie to me saying its confidential,and i cannot read. but why end up saying she sign on my behalf? things that she do and say and getting more and more contradicting... which sentence should i believe? i really feel so tire having to act like nothing has happen. shall go cold storage to interview on monday


will be going for camp this month end. hi club instructor camp... quite looking forward:-)
so many things need to be done during this holiday. cleaning the house, clearing my room, my clothes and my books... i really need to sell my clothes liao.. really can't stand my room. i need more energy and more time. omg... not only that, i also need to go tampines to see that doctor also. my facial cleanser also finish liao. also need to go buy daily needs... shampoo, shower foam etc.... omg so so so many things.....

we can't stay at one place just because one person is there.
we can choose to leave even though people want us to stay....
and i decided to leave even though people want me to stay.
this time round no matter what, i will leace no matter who ask me to stay.

going 20... getting older

so long never update my blog le... really too busy.
In 30 minutes time, i'll be turning 20... will say goodbye to my teenage life... omg... suddenly feel that i'm so old la....
having attachment recently. really busy but i really gain a lot. learn alot of things especially medication. there are so many types of medication... this week will be my last week in TTSH for attachment. somehow this attachment change my view towards this hospital. actually TTSH also quite a nice hospital to work in... very busy, time past very fast also....
i start to get tire working in yoshinoya. duno why also. maybe because of the people working there ba... realise that she has changed also... do i still trust her so much? does she still trust me that much? why am i keeping my door close just because of one person?
this holiday i'll be finding another job. most likely cashier at clod storage....
got to go and continue watching my DVD le... goodnight

What is love? and what is marriage?

Saw this post at one of my friend blog. find it interesting and meaningful


A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders.... maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him
Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!! So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person

What is marriage then?" the student asked
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."