few words

i'm tire,
i'm confuse
i'm lost..

i feel like giving up... really feel so tire le.................
why must there be changes in my life?
i hate changes

i'm confuse

what's happening to me? am i nuts? how can i do that? i duno... for all i know, after knowing something, i regretted... after u say something, i feel more upset... if i knew that from the start, maybe i'll be waiting for different thing now.. how much i hope that song continue and there is no ending.. how much i hope u will hold me till the end. although i know that i can't as if i really do so, i need something call courage. why must u tell me that making me feel so confuse now?
i'm dreaming. yes.... i can't... its impossible... i can't.. yes... last night maybe he just comforting me ba... maybe just joking with me also...
anyway, yesterday is a happy day for me la... super happy..... post shall be all about cold storage.. i got a complimentary from a customer. and i got a cert from that.. and heard that this complimentary make hougang famous.. something like that la.. because very long never get complimentary le. because so many complains.. singaporean ma... always more complains, seldom have complimentary de la.... in that previous part time job, i use only 3 months to get famous. but i regret spending my 3 years there...
although in cold storage, i spend 13 months before i get a compliment, but i know something that is very different.... i know there are true people... tomorrow will be another day in cold storage... after work, gg cs to work.. although tiring, but i'm happy... super super happy.... last night go k with them... cs ppl... so many ppl go. 01 boss, 03 steward, 05 rhonda, christina, jeff, mickey, susanti, janis, ivy phua, then got other la, steven, and the other 2... really play until very crazy.. haha....... really memorable.

i'm still running. i'm tire

the time now is 1am le. i'm still online. going to start packing. yet duno to start from where. duno to continue from where.
dun have to courage to move back home totally
dun have the energy to start all over again
dun have the hope to move back...

know that i'll fall
know that i'll cry
know that i'll hurt myself even more,
but i still need to move forward
the journey gonna to be tough
full of rocks and needles
but because of my aunt i need to carry on.

COLD STORAGE, i will sure miss u all de... we can compete for everything... even to see who write the most report.. and yea, u always win de lor.. i'm always the second... u should know who i referring to ba.... "HOW MUCH IS YOUR PICK UP AR? shit, how come mine so little... stress ar.... why no customer want to come my counter de.... arghhhh... "
one by one leaving,... what is the thing that is holding me back now? maybe hoping for miracles to happen ba... hoping u all will stay but knowing that all of u are tire and i cannot be so selfish,. but i really bu she de u all. i want those laughter again. i want the fun and craziness again... but i know life have to goes on. i know we should move forward look for better opportunity... just want to let the 2 of u know, thanks so much for the laughter u had brought. laught till cry is already so common thing that happen to me...

i feel so upside down now... be it cold storage life, be it family thingy, be it nursing, be it him... everything is like so fan... i really cant breathe now... i need some fresh air... i need some space... i running away from all the problem... yea... but how long can i run? how much further can i run?