going crazy soon

the time now is 2am in the morning. later i having lesson at 8am. NSL again.. but i still not sleeping. so many things that is keeping within me that i really going to burst already.
first thing first, want to congrat... NS5 video finally came to an end. really enjoy the videoing process. so much laughter... so much unforgettable scenes.
DDD individual assignment also ended... left the group poster presentation...
still have NS5 another presentation and WPD presentation....
then will be the NAPFA test... omg... cant imagine needing to run that sickening 2.4km again... haiz... then the rproj presentation
next will be the final exam,
then will be the RProj write up.
then will be attachment cum PRCP le...
so fast so fast....
today went back yoshi to work.... they hire 2 monkey... they are haiz... cannot make it type... but not my problem anyway. wahaha

who am i going to believe? what is the truth... a truth that i really want to know since i was young. till now the mystery is still not solve yet... i want to know the answer badly... i'm so afraid.... so afraid if my loves one leave me...

had been quite de-motivated again after the stupid DDD and till now still dun have any mood to do and finding... although start finding le, but hor... really like forcing myself... i'm not doing the best of best... what can i do? what should i do? i'm so lost...

do u know that everytime i called u, i want to tell you all my problem yet i'm so afraid i'll cry, i just keep it to myself and just say that i miss you... i really miss childhood time. where you care for me... when i just become independent, you will always call me to ensure my safety... but now, i really feel like i'm on my own. i always had to be cheerful and talkative ah gal in front of you. but, do u know that how sad i am. how much am i keeping to myself that i'm really going crazy.

from tomorrow onwards, i shall stop all the msn chatting and the online games... i'll be giving my very best in doing all the project.. giving my last and best shot.... i'll learn to be strong... tonight shall be the last night i cry to sleep.....i'll be strong and i have to be strong.