what am i suppose to do?

what am i suppose to do? i'm so lost now. flooded with family problem.. how much i wish i could should it with someone... going to move back home. will i be able to take it? how am i going to handle that little monster result. seeing her result really stress me lor. trust me, my sister will sure sms me this weekend de. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?
anyway, my job also doesn't goes well for me. next week i'll be going to the ward le. hopefully things will go better for me ba...
why is things always don't goes well for me? is it my problem or is it i'm just so unlucky?
something horrifying is that i still to have insomnia. is this a sign of depression, stress or its just not tire to sleep? whats happening around me?
i miss you.. really hope i can be....... really hope i can have someone to rely on.

finally i'm back

well i'm back to sg as schedule... jus a few hours delay that day.... never gana quarantine... next day sunday had a bad quarrel with my mum.... end up go cold storage to work with swollen eye. haiz... pathetic.... anyway, 11MAY 2009 my graduation day, the day i start work in TTSH... that day is really tire yet memorable... morning wake up at 630, went out at 715am... reach TTSH at 8... suppose to start work at 830 de... haha... i'm early leh... then orientation end at 1230 for us.... the rest have to go all the way until 5... anyway, after that i rush home, shower and out i go.... GRADUATION CEREMONY.... suppose to reach at 3pm de... the 220 then i left hse... cab down lor.... opn the way shan tell me she dun wan to go.... so worry she will not turn up... after all the 6 of us had work so hard for the 3 yrs really hope that we can take pics together la... after persuading, yea... she went... that day is really happy... my baobei aunt, my fourth aunt and my sixth aunt went... first time see my baobai smile so much... so sweet lor... haha... memorable day..... my first week of work at TTSH had ended... last week really tire.. so tire that i had intention to quit cold storage. but i feel so lucky to have so many ppl around me that i can pour my stress out... thanks kimfah, roger, xinyi, yenleng.... feel so much better after chatting with them,... cried last night... result from too stress ba,... haha anyway, i really enjoy my 9 days stays in aust... within 6 days drank 10 cup of bubble milk tea... haha... so nice... i miss the milk tea. i miss the pearlssss i miss the place... haha.. i'll be back there de.. be it study or holiday..... got to go le... tmr still have class... diabetes management... i'll jia you de... no matter how stress and how hard life will be, i'll take it as a challenge.

holidayssss

now i'm in aust... enjoying my holiday ba... its already the 4th day and i should say i enjoy today the most... haha.. went to happy cup bubble tea shop... my cousin open de... went there drink milk tea, look how they prepare the niceeeee pearl... i drank 1 and a half cup of milk tea lor... usually i dun like sweet talk de milk tea.. but the happy cup de milk tea is really very nice de.. haha..
for the past few days, i actually miss sg alot... miss the food, the ppl and the work there... should i say i'm crazy? last time wanted to come melbourne so much, but when i'm here i miss sg....

first day i'm here nothing much la... just went supermarket with aunt to buy grocery and etc... 2nd day my aunt brought me to dekain university...
3rd day(ytd) we went geelong, mornington and queencliff... nice place... haahaa

now what worries me the most is the stupid swine flu.... so worry that i might gana quarantine when i'm back to sg... if i really gana quarantine, i'll be doomed... 11 may i wont be able to start work... 11 may i wont be able to go for my grad ceremony.... omg... i really cannot gana quarantine sia.... HOW.....

i'm going off soon

so fast today monday le. should consider my last day in cold storage for my holiday ba.. tmr i need to settle many things then wednesday i'll be flying off to melbourne le. will be coming 9may.. then will be working on 10may... haha... yea...
9may back to sg,
10 may working cs
11may tan tock seng start work and graduation ceremony

omg... i'm crazy le.. thinking of not working in cold storage... will cold storage become like yoshinoya one day?
will i hate cold storage one day like how i hate yoshinoya now?

ok... most likely i'll disappear from blogging for 2 weeks or so... dun miss me ok everyone...:)

I HATE YOSHINOYA. WASTED MY 3 YRS WORKING SO HARD FOR YOU YET I DON'T GET ANYTHING. ALL I WANT IS TO GET BACK MY CERT. THE CERT BELONGS TO ME. WHY CAN I GET IT BACK. SINCE YOU ALL WANT TO INSIST TO FOLLOW THE POLICY, DON'T BLAME ME FOR DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE YOU ALL REGRET. TRUST ME,

i'm sick again...

few more days before my flight to australia. feel quite stress up.... just recieve an e-mail from aunt. realise that uncle paul knows nothing about my air ticket is full subsidize by aunt. the air ticket is not cheap. haiz... as the time gets nearer, the more i dun feel like going... just wish to stay in cold storage and work to earn money....

this few days again so many things happen... oh ya, i'm going to fight back my EXSA silver award cert from that woman. no matter what. since she knows that i graduate liao, i need to start my nursing job liao. there is no reason she keep on holding for that cert.. i'm not going to rely on those stupid manager. just telling me excuse and excuse. ronald is right. if i really wan my cert, i'll need to fight it back myself. relying on manager can die. today working in yoshi in the morning till 2pm.. really bad.. sales is like less then 400 until 2pm... around 380++ haiz... then worst is i'm having fever and headache.

yea... i fall sick again. and its before my trip again.. last time i fall sick also before i go redang... next week i going aust, i fall sick again. and its the chocolate fault again... CHOCOLATE.... arghhhh....

relationship is so irritating... the person i like never confess to me. yet, someone else just suddenly pop out and confess that he like me. let that someone else name H ba... dun want to expose his actual name... not that i dun like H.. but all along i just treat him as a good colleague who is very helpful and quiet... but then never never came across that he will like me... when i tell my 2 friends, they were laughing like siao ar... then ask my chief cashier for opinion, she also keep laughing la... first time see her laugh so much.... anyway, for this H, i really had to reject.... because i had no special feeling for him at all. regards him as a colleague only...
now i start to think back... why all those people that i once like/ like now, never have surprise.. instead, its those who is normal friends, suddenly confess to you... for example: roy, H, ube,
and those i once like never had any ending also... ET, JL, and now is EL... haiz... why must fate keep playing this kind of joke with me? and the best thing is EL and H has the same chinese name... too qiao le ba... hope everything will end soon and my prince will come and save me soon...

i went missing!!!

2 weeks i went missing again... either too busy to blog or too busy to blog lor. today is my mum and one of my secondary sch friend jun wei birthday... last friday meet up with tian, boon, rong and si sian. went east coast to celebration junwei birthday. had great fun at throwing flour.
anyway, thanks pig family for being there with me since secondary sch time.. the ba cho mee... hahaha... but somehow i find that junwei seems like difting away from us since he had a gf le...

then last sunday went back home to celebrate my mum birthday... everything was ok but i feel so stress up whenever i think of moving back to stay... as the days pass one day by one day, its nearer to stepping out the first step.

this month really finance crisis for me sia... rebonding, mother birthday cakes, transportations, seeing doctor because of my face and meals expenses..

this week will be busy working week again.. monday tuesday friday saturday and sunday cold storage, wednesday yoshi, thirday see doc at tampines again, saturday after work will be meeting him and go eat sakura...


i hope my pay will come faster....

i regret what i had done yesterday