there is mouse in my house!!!

last night was chatting with my friend when i heard some funny noises
then i was shock thinking that it might be mouse since we are staying ground floor and had quite a few episode of mouse entering the house. but when i quiet down, the sound is gone. thought that its my imagination.
just now came back home with a bug horror. THERE IS A WHOLE IN MY BAG. inform my aunt that i suspected there is a mouse, she went kitchen and realise that her raw koropok that was left in a box on the floor also have sign of being destroy. the plastic also have whole. wth.....

this few day really tire. numbing myself so that i wont think so much, but it doesn't seems to help. the ward is really busy. non stop de turning, changing diaper, feeding. its just like a route.having backache and all sort of stupid problem. haiz... shall update more next time. time to go to sleep liao.

i learnt

sometimes its better not to be too curious.
sometimes its better not to know too many things
when things get more and more complicated, i start to wonder. if in the first place i don't know all these things, isn't it better?
will history really repeating itself again?
will i lost friends the way i lost last time?
what happen last time doesn't seems to bother me.
but what's happening this time is really haunting me.
i don't want to lose friends like u all.
I DON'T WAN TO KNOW THE THINGS THAT I KNOW.
i don't want to hide things from u all anymore.
how can i unload all the things that i know?
with you all around, my laughter seems more real to me.
no longer smile and laugh for the seek of hiding and faking
its real. laugh till i can't stand
laugh till i stomach cramp
laugh till i keep running to the ......
will that ever happen again?
i seriously have no answer to that

going out tmr

this few days had being feeling very tire. maybe because of working too much and stressing myself over my family problem ba....
and i start to wonder if i should give up on you anot.
i don't know what is my position to you.
i don't know am i good enough to be with you anot.
i don't know why am i waiting
i don't know if i should continue to wait anot.
for all i know just enjoy going out with you
for all i know i had being waiting for u for 6 months le.
i wonder how long more do i need to wait
i wonder what if i like someone else during this period, what shall i do (although i know this won't happen, but what if)

i'm ready to give up

this week, i'm going to give my one last chance. either together or i'll give up. i wonder, why am i so stupid, someone like me yet i'm willing to wait for someone i like? what am i feeling now? why am i also have the wrong 6th sense? today i sense the wrong wrong thing also. haizzzzzz... i really hope i can be with him

what am i suppose to do?

what am i suppose to do? i'm so lost now. flooded with family problem.. how much i wish i could should it with someone... going to move back home. will i be able to take it? how am i going to handle that little monster result. seeing her result really stress me lor. trust me, my sister will sure sms me this weekend de. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?
anyway, my job also doesn't goes well for me. next week i'll be going to the ward le. hopefully things will go better for me ba...
why is things always don't goes well for me? is it my problem or is it i'm just so unlucky?
something horrifying is that i still to have insomnia. is this a sign of depression, stress or its just not tire to sleep? whats happening around me?
i miss you.. really hope i can be....... really hope i can have someone to rely on.

finally i'm back

well i'm back to sg as schedule... jus a few hours delay that day.... never gana quarantine... next day sunday had a bad quarrel with my mum.... end up go cold storage to work with swollen eye. haiz... pathetic.... anyway, 11MAY 2009 my graduation day, the day i start work in TTSH... that day is really tire yet memorable... morning wake up at 630, went out at 715am... reach TTSH at 8... suppose to start work at 830 de... haha... i'm early leh... then orientation end at 1230 for us.... the rest have to go all the way until 5... anyway, after that i rush home, shower and out i go.... GRADUATION CEREMONY.... suppose to reach at 3pm de... the 220 then i left hse... cab down lor.... opn the way shan tell me she dun wan to go.... so worry she will not turn up... after all the 6 of us had work so hard for the 3 yrs really hope that we can take pics together la... after persuading, yea... she went... that day is really happy... my baobei aunt, my fourth aunt and my sixth aunt went... first time see my baobai smile so much... so sweet lor... haha... memorable day..... my first week of work at TTSH had ended... last week really tire.. so tire that i had intention to quit cold storage. but i feel so lucky to have so many ppl around me that i can pour my stress out... thanks kimfah, roger, xinyi, yenleng.... feel so much better after chatting with them,... cried last night... result from too stress ba,... haha anyway, i really enjoy my 9 days stays in aust... within 6 days drank 10 cup of bubble milk tea... haha... so nice... i miss the milk tea. i miss the pearlssss i miss the place... haha.. i'll be back there de.. be it study or holiday..... got to go le... tmr still have class... diabetes management... i'll jia you de... no matter how stress and how hard life will be, i'll take it as a challenge.

holidayssss

now i'm in aust... enjoying my holiday ba... its already the 4th day and i should say i enjoy today the most... haha.. went to happy cup bubble tea shop... my cousin open de... went there drink milk tea, look how they prepare the niceeeee pearl... i drank 1 and a half cup of milk tea lor... usually i dun like sweet talk de milk tea.. but the happy cup de milk tea is really very nice de.. haha..
for the past few days, i actually miss sg alot... miss the food, the ppl and the work there... should i say i'm crazy? last time wanted to come melbourne so much, but when i'm here i miss sg....

first day i'm here nothing much la... just went supermarket with aunt to buy grocery and etc... 2nd day my aunt brought me to dekain university...
3rd day(ytd) we went geelong, mornington and queencliff... nice place... haahaa

now what worries me the most is the stupid swine flu.... so worry that i might gana quarantine when i'm back to sg... if i really gana quarantine, i'll be doomed... 11 may i wont be able to start work... 11 may i wont be able to go for my grad ceremony.... omg... i really cannot gana quarantine sia.... HOW.....