working in progress.....

this is the first time i'm so freee when working in ttsh... well i have 4 empty beds... good luck to me ba...
anyway, the intention of being single is stronger and stronger... i have no time for him.... i can't cope having another person in my life... cant expect me to give up cs just because of him.... but then on the other hand, he is on and off so good to me..... feeling guilty, feeling regrets.... but there is nothing i can do at this very moment.... dun wan to disappoint him b4 his birthday dun wan to move forward to prevent myself from falling deeper...... what am i suppose to do???? i wonder....

what's happenng?

i duno what i'm doing or what i have done...
i duno if i should continue or i shpuld not.
i duno if i can tahan for how long more....
its tiring...
its irritating
its frustrating......

day 12

i do miss him uunknowingly....
wishing for his sms....
well.... comin back this saturday. hopefully everything goes well ba...


so tire tire tire with working yet i'm still slogging........

looking forward for my I PHONE and MACBOOK this month:)

sweet? phobia?

as what my title show.. i somehow try to avoid... yet when see him, i'm extreme happy.... brought a peach drink with gummy and chocolate drink.. target less then 3 months ba...

dun dare to put hope.
the more u expect, the more u get disappointed.
if can last more then 3 months, its a bonus.
if less then 3 month, just a experience ba...

at the edge

hahaha... living my life to the fullest this few day.. working cs and ttsh.. although tire, but somehow, i'm use to it.
ever since i clubbing life, i already convince myself that i'm not suitable for a relationship. not now.
although still have been gg out with cat, but now i'm no longer expecting tat much le...
but freedom life did not last.....
a guy(my regular cs customer from cs) came again last night...
he asked me for my number....
now i realise myself at the edge of a relationship again....
but something good is this time round is that this guy is not that old.... hahaha
well i realise i have phobia in stepping in the relationship liao... haha...
but this time i dun feel like stepping in le.. let this goes by nature ba.....

i hate u

Someone who i once like, at this very moment i hate him most. He play with words very well. but he doesn't know that words can hurt the most. why must he be so sarcastic? why must he have nothing better to do to text those things. how much i wish i had never enter into clubbing life. it does not belong to me.
in order to cherish my friendship, and hoping to enjoy the life girls around my age should have, i nearly lost a friend who is worth much more then that guy. i cried over this friendship, but i'll never cry over him... because i know that i'm wrong at my judgment again.....

working

this week was quite havoc week. tuesday went costa sand chalet. wed went uss.. haha... was real fun esp that Egypt ride... cool...
then ytd back to work liao... how much i hope i can no need to work.. can just have that kind of life everyday. later on going to work night shift again.... really dragging de lo....

just now went to ntuc to buy something... saw my kindergarden-pri sch close friend. weeling.. she hasn't change much.. was thinking so much on my way back. how chatter-box i am when i was young. gd temper also. but now? my temper so hot. but something for sure i know is i'm learning how to not throw out my temper. when ever i'm tire, now i wil just prefer to keep quiet.... haizzzzzzzz..........

i hope i can see him soon..... occasionally i'll still thinks of him. but the different now is i wont do foolish things when i miss him. although i enjoy doing those foolish things, but i know i have to put it to a stop. i don't want to get into deeper and deeper trouble until one day i regret.
got to go to sleep liao... good luck to me ba....