so many things need to do... so many thing i wish to let go yet unable to let go...
how much i wish i could let go of yoshi yet i can;t even take 1 month break
how much i wish i could let go of chinese orchestra yet i can't also...
things that i need to do are so many... i'm totally drained... no more energy to continue...
tomorrow i 7-3 have attachment, then will go straight to school for chinese orchestra...
friday i have attachment from 7-3 also, then will go straight to crocodile warehouse sales...
saturday and sunday will be crocodile... monday yoshi, tuesday crocodile... wednesday school start.... when then can i have time for myself? when then can i go and buy shirts and bags that i like? when then can i have time to go shopping and k box with my friends?
i really hate this kind of life... start to regret leaving my house again... if i'm not so stubborn things won't be so bad for me now right? if i listen to them and take engineering course, life will be much better now right...
decided not to take 1 month break... william is short of crew and geraldine wanted me to go back too... there is a period of time i'm wondering should i stay at CTL or should i go back to HFC... i hate myself why must i think so much... i wonder if i go back HFC, will i be a better person.. if i stay at CTL, will it be better for me... i still decided ti go back HFC because i want people to know that i had change... i'm not the siewling that will throw temper anymore.. i'm not the noisy siewling anymore... but on the other hand, going back i fear that my parent will go there and quarrel with me... so much fear yet i'm not doing anything... i'm just running away from my family problem...
shall end here and go my lala land liao... wahaha...
although life is tough, but i'll continue to work hard
things don't go the way we want sometimes but we cannot just give up easily...
goodnight
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