dinner with "MA"

ended work at 430 today..... planning for coming home and make good food for my aunt... ended up receiving sms to go eat dinner with him and his MA.... spoiling my plan irritates me....
who am i dating with???? him or his MA?
whats wrong with me????
why am i finding fault in him????

well... i know the main reason behind it...
i know i shouldn't
i know i can't
i'm just being unreasonable...
he may not know... he may never know....

is my sixth sense got problem or am i just thinking too much....
he claims that his MA like me alot
he claims that his MA wanted me to go back for dinner more often...
he claims that his MA very proud of me being his girlfriend
how true can t hat be.....
why i dun sense it.....

i'm just a bad gal that ran away from home...
i'm a bad gal that cos my aunt and my mum to quarrel over me...
i'm jus a jinx to my family...
i'm extra in cs... i'm extra in my ward....
i'm just extra in this world......

i just dun feel right now...
i just feel insecure
i'm just having mixed feelings....
maybe i'll be fine after a sleep...
maybe i will never.