another 4 months...

wow... time really flies....
another 4 months had past..
sometimes i just wonder, why is my life so happening....
so many things happening everyday, every week, every month...

since young, i wish i could have a elder sister who care for me, love me, and dote me just like my cousin.. finally after i left hse, i thought my wish finally come true.. my real elder sister.. she cares for me. Listen to me and understand me. after that, she starts to share her problem with me..
next she ask me for help financially. then i agree to be her guarantor. she promise she will make payment on time. few months later i receive call from the bank saying that she default her payment. not one month.. is 4 months. i told her and she make payment. few months later i recieve call again. i told the bank that I'm the guarantor and I'll contact her for payment. its was then that i was told i'm not the guarantor. I'm the account holder!! i wonder, why am i such a fool. why do i buy her words and believe in what she says.. anyway, its too late for me to do anything. got to just bear with it. but something i learnt is i'll never trust anyone including my own family..

someone appears into my life.. someone who likes me.. but i think at my current state, i'm not ready for another relationship. not for the time being. and the someone seems to have left me after that.. i thought we could be friends.. but.... quietly after few months he left... although we still keep in touch, but we keep a distance as well.

as for eddie... i had accepted the fact that we are good friends... slowly, i'm returning to my own world... a world that belongs to ME!!! alone yet happy me!!! i believe time will wash off the love that i had in him and making our friendship stronger. i'm not upset that we cannot develop into the kind of relationship i wanted to. instead i'm happy that i found a true friend who has the same liking in idols and hobby in eating buffet!!

just wish that my life will just move on peacefully...

i pack my very first case in this department. a very sudden collaspe.. and passed away.. felling sad for this patient and his family, but i believe its a learning path for me..

as for my uncle.. although he is taking 10 tablets every morning... but he is back to his normal!! and he doesn't requires blood taking every week!!!! seeing him happy, eating well... and most importantly by my side.. i'm contented.. and i'm going to invite him to my graduation ceremony. he is going to see me going up the stage collecting my degree cert!! can't wait for that day to come!!!!

well i'm going to sign off le.. feeling sleepy now.. hopefully my next update will not be 4 months later.. haha..