Sick

This year really very happening. Went to a&e twice... Both due to gastric pain.. Worst still yesterday the dr wanna admit me but I refuse. Tmr clinic appt.. I think I'll just face it. Agree to go do scope ba.. Something I wanted to avoid but seems like it's time I face it le.. 

He really disappoint me yesterday. It was his off day. Actually wanted him to accompany me to go a&e cause I'm scare. Asked him if I should go and can he accompany me, I cried when he reply.. He reply: Go lo. Not like I'm of much help even if I go. Why will I fall in love with this kind of guy!!!! Upset to the max..