NEW LAPTOP:)

finally, i bought my macBook Pro liao.... after waiting for so so long... i finally bought it.... quite ex... but with 3 free things.... satisfy:)....still getting use to the new laptop...
most of the item is installed... just that a few function still figuring how to use it... haha... bought my laptop and a table on national day... that is my only free day out of my my 2 weeks AL ba.....
with him accompanying me the whole day.... heehee.... happy time.....

dinner with "MA"

ended work at 430 today..... planning for coming home and make good food for my aunt... ended up receiving sms to go eat dinner with him and his MA.... spoiling my plan irritates me....
who am i dating with???? him or his MA?
whats wrong with me????
why am i finding fault in him????

well... i know the main reason behind it...
i know i shouldn't
i know i can't
i'm just being unreasonable...
he may not know... he may never know....

is my sixth sense got problem or am i just thinking too much....
he claims that his MA like me alot
he claims that his MA wanted me to go back for dinner more often...
he claims that his MA very proud of me being his girlfriend
how true can t hat be.....
why i dun sense it.....

i'm just a bad gal that ran away from home...
i'm a bad gal that cos my aunt and my mum to quarrel over me...
i'm jus a jinx to my family...
i'm extra in cs... i'm extra in my ward....
i'm just extra in this world......

i just dun feel right now...
i just feel insecure
i'm just having mixed feelings....
maybe i'll be fine after a sleep...
maybe i will never.

working in progress.....

this is the first time i'm so freee when working in ttsh... well i have 4 empty beds... good luck to me ba...
anyway, the intention of being single is stronger and stronger... i have no time for him.... i can't cope having another person in my life... cant expect me to give up cs just because of him.... but then on the other hand, he is on and off so good to me..... feeling guilty, feeling regrets.... but there is nothing i can do at this very moment.... dun wan to disappoint him b4 his birthday dun wan to move forward to prevent myself from falling deeper...... what am i suppose to do???? i wonder....

what's happenng?

i duno what i'm doing or what i have done...
i duno if i should continue or i shpuld not.
i duno if i can tahan for how long more....
its tiring...
its irritating
its frustrating......

day 12

i do miss him uunknowingly....
wishing for his sms....
well.... comin back this saturday. hopefully everything goes well ba...


so tire tire tire with working yet i'm still slogging........

looking forward for my I PHONE and MACBOOK this month:)

sweet? phobia?

as what my title show.. i somehow try to avoid... yet when see him, i'm extreme happy.... brought a peach drink with gummy and chocolate drink.. target less then 3 months ba...

dun dare to put hope.
the more u expect, the more u get disappointed.
if can last more then 3 months, its a bonus.
if less then 3 month, just a experience ba...

at the edge

hahaha... living my life to the fullest this few day.. working cs and ttsh.. although tire, but somehow, i'm use to it.
ever since i clubbing life, i already convince myself that i'm not suitable for a relationship. not now.
although still have been gg out with cat, but now i'm no longer expecting tat much le...
but freedom life did not last.....
a guy(my regular cs customer from cs) came again last night...
he asked me for my number....
now i realise myself at the edge of a relationship again....
but something good is this time round is that this guy is not that old.... hahaha
well i realise i have phobia in stepping in the relationship liao... haha...
but this time i dun feel like stepping in le.. let this goes by nature ba.....