IT'S 2012

wow... so so busy recently till 3 it's already 2012...
well, now at work, quite free and also feel like blogging out what happen recently....

I have move hse to amk le... moving hse is so troublesome and tiring.. anyway, i'm enjoying my small and cosy room

celebrated christmas and new yr... christmas was a belated christmas with him,.. happy happy....

new year celebration didn't goes well. meet up with poly close friends hoping that can have a good catch up with them.. it end up quite unhappy gathering.then after that got a small arguement with him... anyway, that arguement with him resolve in just a day..

got the news that my family someone is pregnant.. so naturally i thought that my sister-in-law is pregnant since this yyear is a dragon yr... however, i was told that no, i might be a sister this time not aunt... WHICH MEANS THAT MY MUM MIGHT BE PREGNANT... OMGG

hopefully its false alarm ba

i'll be transfering to renci this month... somehow felt being abandon... but its ok.. no0w i felt happy and relieve to be transferred.. find it pointless continue working here...

shall end here... and shall update again soon.. btw, being able to get a 70% from him i'm really happy le:)

sept

I'm back...
seems like i'm updating once a month nowadays..
haha
sept... his bday. celebrated with him hope he is happy ba....
as what i had say, october, dun worry, i'll leave u alone. i will not irritates u again...

he is back to cs... shocking... this time round as 01... hahaha... weird weird de...
should i say i'm scare of him now le ba... dun even dare to call him pig head le...
haha

heard rumors re. me and masterfix de p3 tgt...
omg... some even suspect me and him go hk tgt
no no no no
me and him now really purely good friend nia...
nothing else.
whats more he just become father
stop guessing le. stop suspecting le...
so shock that christina actually talk to me re this issue....
buying lunch for him, he buy milk tea in return, eating in tearoom....
haizzzz....
hopefully after keeping a distance from him will avoid unnecessary rumors ba....

to B and K.E, all the best to you all... road might be tough but i believe both of u will make it de... jiayou... and i'll miss both of u de.....

first night

omg... after hk trip, had my first night ytd... disaster.... 3 admission at one go.... busy...
reach home helped my friend buy a F1 ticket, then started downloading some songs... some songs that can make me really emotional... yup... broke down in front of my lappy... thinking of you.. more then 3 sms without your reply.. seriously duno what happen... if it is because of that day, i already apologize to you le.. and its more then 1 week le... after that u also got reply ar... so cannot be that day le... but what is it then? i really wish to know...
i realize that every song hat i listen now reminds me of you... those songs that we went k to sing.... so last night i didn't listen to any music because i dun dare to listen afraid that i'll cry... today decide to download new songs... ended up i break down... why every song just remind me of you...
i miss you....
till when then you will reply me?
will i be able to celebrate your birthday as promised?
will i have the chance to still go uss with you?
will i still get to go sing k with you?
when can i get a sms from you?
i'm sorry......

long updates

unknowingly i had not being updating my blogs for 2 months le...
this 2 months so happy yet so disheartening,
cat seems to get closer yet now seems to be further...
went out almost every week... but...
went to watch jump tgt... sing k tgt... watch harry potter tgt... i thought i'll stand a higher chance...
but it doesn't seems like the way i thought. we now seem drifting further... upset by him badly... disappointed... cried... and i think after his bday, i shall put a full stop to it. maybe i'm not the gal he is looking for ba....he said he shall try to disappear for a month in october from me.. well... i guess i shall grant his wish ba... i shall not disturb him, irritates him and i shall give him the peace he wants...
so many years le.. and i can't blame him too what... it has always being one sided..... maybe time is up.... it's time to move on.. after his birthday...

went to hk last friday till tuesday morning... the trip is more on sight seeing rather then shopping... but still its fun... during this trip, think alot.. sometime, being alone might be even better.. cried so much... laugh so much.... play so much...
conclusion is i'm sure i wan to go back hk today... this time round for shopping.. and i also wants to go taiwan... and bangkok too....

hmmmm

now doing night shift. back aching till cannot take it.
feel so sian coming to work now a days. working with so many mip... omg...i'm really irritated by them
recently quite into tarots cards reading.. very interesting and can be quite true lo.... hahaha... fun fun fun...'
later going out with cat again:) it's something that motivate me for this night shift lo...
i think almost 1 month nv meet him le... he find it weird weird also... hahahahaha... shall go shop shop tmr.... wohooohooo...
hopefully by later my backache will be better ba...
wondering where will we be going...

hmmmm... sometime i just wonder how is he doing recently....

meet up woth janis jie recently.... yeah... she is still the same... hai shi yi yang de teng wo:P janis jie, love you wo... promise i won't do anything foolish anymore le... what is past shall be a history for me le... jieeeeejieeeeee.... hahahahahaha,..... and i enjoy my singlehood life o... so carefree:)
and even if i were to get into a new relationship, i know that it can only be one person... opppps..

gtg take a nap first le.... later got to sponge patient... byeeeee.....

6 June

it's 6 june... one yr ago today i start of a journey that i regreted. maybe he dun even rmb.
6months had past since we left each other for our own life. yes, i have let go totally le. he is not worth me to love him. why why do i still rmb this date?

feeling stressed up recently over some other thing.... something that don't belongs to me... holding on because i don't know to let go. Got to learn to let go ba... maybe it's really for my own good,.....

took my third job for the past 4 days... tiring and stressed up.... although pay is 7.50/hr, but i realise i rather spend my time in cs and earn $4.61/6.01 per hr. at least i'm less stress. so stress up with my sales... wanting to hit target so badly... but well.... hahahahaha i didn't.....

ah ping is getting married.... or rather already married just waiting for end of this week to go malaysia to get the traditional one done.... oh my beloved cousin.... hahahahahaha... looking forward thursday gg Muar and will be back on friday night.....

my third aunt came to sg for this event too... so exciting..... anyway, spoken to her face to face regarding oversea studies. told her deakin uni is not recognise by SNB. she agree for me to go curtin uni in perth le.... but now looking at the current situation. very very likely i might be going there to study alone le......i wish to go with them. but like what one of them say, will we be friend after the studies?? i wonder and i'm worry.... nvm, worst come to worst i shall go alone ba......

k la.. got to end her cos later working at 7am and the time now is 0345hr.... i got to go sleep le..... shalll update my life over my blog soon ba....

may

its seems like i'm only free to update once a month only le..
so happening... ah ping is getting married... from 9may to 11 may i'll be gg malaysia with them... so so excited...
trying hard to lost weight recently.. still working in progress.
going out with cat more often now. almost once every 2 week and even every week... going sing k, have dinner after he finish work... having dinner after i finish work... if lucky, still have time for movie leh... now, i no longer ask for more le.... this is enough and i'm really contented le..
will be registering for curtin end if this month on 28 may.
worried. scared...
although my aunt had agreed to "interest-free" pay my sch fee first. but if gg to aust to study amd come back sg to work, isnt that a waste since i can take the same degree in sg.
ytd night had a round of chat with fourth aunt. what she say is true. not everyone have the chance to experience oversea studies ad since i got the chance, i should hold on the chance and go ahead to studies. she also added, she thinks coming back to sg and work is not a bad idea.
what about my parent side? what if my parent find them trouble?
gg oversea with friend will it be a good choice? or maybe going alone will be even better?
now already so lack of communication. going together will make this friendship turns better or worst? if u feel that everything i also nv say, its not because i dun want to say. its because i duno to start from where.... knowing that u haven decide what else can i say? i wish i could persuade u. but at the same time i can't. I know if i do so, it will stress you up. if you go there study, ur parent will want to stay there and work as well but u haven decide yet. anyway, when u wan can call me anytime ba... i'm 24/7 available de ok... :P

got to go slp liao.. later work night shift... omg... night shift, here i come.....