Upset

I'm also a human. I also know what is jealous. Dont always think that I'm the only one at fault and you have done nothing wrong. How many chances I gave you. How many times u disappoint me? Again and again and again. Now turn back, all my fault again.

studiessss

disappeared in march.. was really busy recently until i dun even have time to sleep....
arghhh... i'm a student le... good and bad...

decided to take up degree course... secretly.. actually wanted to let my family knows de but end up.... parent asking for monthly allowance when they got to know that i going for further studies.. irritaed.. they think that i have $$ to go study so sure have to give them.. they think my sch fee cheap meh... haiz..so i told them i not gg to study le. decide to put brace instead.. good think is they believe lah...

so now financially consider really tight.. or rather very tight... every 4 month got to pay sch fee... $3900.. every month got to pay dental $160+ for braces, monthly rental cum phone bill cum internet around $200.. credit card bills haiz.. $500++
so thought of temporary stopping cold storage while studying.. but now i think cannot le.. got to have a very good time plan for both my studies and work...

assignment is my biggest headache now... sociocultural... omg.. what has nursing got to do with that sia... haizz 1800 words due next week... today tried to do end up doze off halfway,... ward 7 calls wake me up... asking me to do night shift today.. lucky.. tmr got one day off.... tmr going out with cat... after that hope i can concentrate to do my assignment ba..

recently can feel that the distance between cat and me is nearer.. going out every week, and we are going genting in july!!... looking forward... but before that i must settle my exam first...

before sch start i'm so confident that i can concentrate in studies.. but now.... i realize it's really not that easy... feel so shag everyday...

how then can i get over this 16months?? i need this degree i know... i need this cert for a better sercure of my job.. i want to stand more firm.. but it seems really tough...

i had left 7c for 3 months le... adapting well in this current ward.. getting along well with the staff here.. hopefully things will remains this way ba...

my birthday passsed by quietly... 24 this year le... so fast... left hse 6 years, independent 3 years.. sometimes thinking back, i'm actually quite tire of being strong... i seems to be strong in the surface.. but inside me, i feel so lost.. da gu now has little cute Earnest need to take care... contact me also lesser le.. but little Earnest is really cute, really clever... but with him, whenever i'm lost i tend to contact her lesser cos she also having problem with taking care of him and getting along with caifong.. telling her my problem i scare i'll stress her more... so now got to either swallow it if not look for si gugu...

r/s with my elder sister also closer recently.... surprisely right.. nv expected it but due to some reason, we get much closer now...

i miss da gugu. si gugu, san gugu and sixth aunt....

Orientation in curtin Singapore

Waiting in the lecture hall, today is the orientation day... Haha.. I'm a curtin student now taking part time degree. Sitting here I start to wonder if I can make it to graduation. With renci work and cold storage.. Now with a night class.. got to really plan my time more carefully le....
Ytd went out with cat.. Should I consider that as v day celebration since today he working and I got orientation? Lol.. But really enjoyed ytd dinner at traders hotel:) <3 haahaaa.. Really nice food... Walk from orchard to traders hotel thought will be v far.. But, it's really near with him around.. Slight disappointment cos no flower but expected it.. If got flowers, then I'll b really surprise.. Haha.. Actually now thinking abt it, I dun mind remaining in current status... I dun want to neglect him after I start my classes.. I just afraid I'll not have time to pei him after my class start.. Hopefully won't ba.. Got to plan wisely le..

IT'S 2012

wow... so so busy recently till 3 it's already 2012...
well, now at work, quite free and also feel like blogging out what happen recently....

I have move hse to amk le... moving hse is so troublesome and tiring.. anyway, i'm enjoying my small and cosy room

celebrated christmas and new yr... christmas was a belated christmas with him,.. happy happy....

new year celebration didn't goes well. meet up with poly close friends hoping that can have a good catch up with them.. it end up quite unhappy gathering.then after that got a small arguement with him... anyway, that arguement with him resolve in just a day..

got the news that my family someone is pregnant.. so naturally i thought that my sister-in-law is pregnant since this yyear is a dragon yr... however, i was told that no, i might be a sister this time not aunt... WHICH MEANS THAT MY MUM MIGHT BE PREGNANT... OMGG

hopefully its false alarm ba

i'll be transfering to renci this month... somehow felt being abandon... but its ok.. no0w i felt happy and relieve to be transferred.. find it pointless continue working here...

shall end here... and shall update again soon.. btw, being able to get a 70% from him i'm really happy le:)

sept

I'm back...
seems like i'm updating once a month nowadays..
haha
sept... his bday. celebrated with him hope he is happy ba....
as what i had say, october, dun worry, i'll leave u alone. i will not irritates u again...

he is back to cs... shocking... this time round as 01... hahaha... weird weird de...
should i say i'm scare of him now le ba... dun even dare to call him pig head le...
haha

heard rumors re. me and masterfix de p3 tgt...
omg... some even suspect me and him go hk tgt
no no no no
me and him now really purely good friend nia...
nothing else.
whats more he just become father
stop guessing le. stop suspecting le...
so shock that christina actually talk to me re this issue....
buying lunch for him, he buy milk tea in return, eating in tearoom....
haizzzz....
hopefully after keeping a distance from him will avoid unnecessary rumors ba....

to B and K.E, all the best to you all... road might be tough but i believe both of u will make it de... jiayou... and i'll miss both of u de.....

first night

omg... after hk trip, had my first night ytd... disaster.... 3 admission at one go.... busy...
reach home helped my friend buy a F1 ticket, then started downloading some songs... some songs that can make me really emotional... yup... broke down in front of my lappy... thinking of you.. more then 3 sms without your reply.. seriously duno what happen... if it is because of that day, i already apologize to you le.. and its more then 1 week le... after that u also got reply ar... so cannot be that day le... but what is it then? i really wish to know...
i realize that every song hat i listen now reminds me of you... those songs that we went k to sing.... so last night i didn't listen to any music because i dun dare to listen afraid that i'll cry... today decide to download new songs... ended up i break down... why every song just remind me of you...
i miss you....
till when then you will reply me?
will i be able to celebrate your birthday as promised?
will i have the chance to still go uss with you?
will i still get to go sing k with you?
when can i get a sms from you?
i'm sorry......

long updates

unknowingly i had not being updating my blogs for 2 months le...
this 2 months so happy yet so disheartening,
cat seems to get closer yet now seems to be further...
went out almost every week... but...
went to watch jump tgt... sing k tgt... watch harry potter tgt... i thought i'll stand a higher chance...
but it doesn't seems like the way i thought. we now seem drifting further... upset by him badly... disappointed... cried... and i think after his bday, i shall put a full stop to it. maybe i'm not the gal he is looking for ba....he said he shall try to disappear for a month in october from me.. well... i guess i shall grant his wish ba... i shall not disturb him, irritates him and i shall give him the peace he wants...
so many years le.. and i can't blame him too what... it has always being one sided..... maybe time is up.... it's time to move on.. after his birthday...

went to hk last friday till tuesday morning... the trip is more on sight seeing rather then shopping... but still its fun... during this trip, think alot.. sometime, being alone might be even better.. cried so much... laugh so much.... play so much...
conclusion is i'm sure i wan to go back hk today... this time round for shopping.. and i also wants to go taiwan... and bangkok too....