i miss my phone

when i had my phone with me, i always think that the phone is old, the paint had came off, i want to change my phone. now i had lost it... i realise i take it for granted... i had lost all the contact.for all the ppl reading this, pls sms me your number.... i had problem waking up without my phone also... although jia lent me her spare phone but still.... haiz....

everyone wanting my time... cold storage, yoshi, where i can find so many timesssss for you all.... haizzzzz.....

working like nobody business... stressing myself out... i'm thinking negatively again... negative thoughts flooding into my mind now.... do i make a different in the world??

is fate always making fun of people?

for the pass 2 days i'm off... thursday night work in yoshi and friday night work in cold storage. well, i'm shocked by the news john is taking over great world city again... really very shock... why must he tale over? my plan is just to get the certs and leave... 6 dec, the day i join 3 years ago will also be the day i resign 3 years later... but his sudden appear as area in charge again make my decision change again... yes AGAIN... my friend might be scolding me stupid now, but again.... i'm emotional... the only thing i bu she de in yoshi is the happy time that i once had working with managers like john, eileen, geraldine edwin and once how... not forgeting chito too.... those are really happy times that i can never experience again... now, only left geraldine and john is in yoshi and it is impossible to work with geraldine happily like last time anymore... and the main thing is ..... i....... haiz.....really hate to say... haiz....
anyway, i can see that sharon really dislike me... but who cares.....
last thursday working in yoshi is really torture... i'm giving 2 and a half hour de mailers and scrubbing the floor using a small sponge.... and i only serve i think 5 customer only... did they purposely do it or what? i duno la.. but i'm pissed...
i find myself so stupid... why should i stay on just because of .... i'm so unhappy and store in charge dislike me, i might as well leave right..... haiz... lets see how first ba....

last night work cold storage... yeah... tally again... although abit not happy in the later part., well, being able to tally is enough for me le... wahaha....
i just wish that i wont always be the last one to do declaration...
i'm not the last one to finish counting, but why should i be the last one to declare? haiz....

i got to go attachment liao...... everyone who is having attcahment, jia you wor.....

unknowingly, i fall in love with you...
unknowingly the feeling dies off...
now you are back again....
what should i do...
will i fall in love with you again?
i know i can't
i know you won't...
i know to you, i'm may just be a young sister...
but i just fall in love unknowingly...

my day off.....

this week the rooster is really good... i off on last sat and sun.. then monday PH... then tues and wed am shift.. then tmr and fri off day... sat PM, sun AM.. although weekends need to work, but it quite balance la... work 2 days, off 2 days then work 2 days.... then next monday i request off... so off again... wow... such a nice rooster...
anyway, later will be going to yoshi to work again... although i feel really sianed... but no choice... got to tahan till i get all my certs.... haiz.... tmr cold storage... yeah yeah... another challenging day.... i love it... recently crazy over trying to balance....
oh... i'm back to hougang de house again... just moved back from my sixth aunt house ytd... and i miss shantel... the cute and adorable dog... shantel, i miss u....

PRCP killing me

omg... today went to the ward... the ward is so so hot la... sweating like nobody business.....
NYP YR 3 student nurses ordering us around doing parameter....

yoshi.... working this sunday 10-4.... so many things need to do... so many things need to clarify.... i'm hating yoshi more and more.... one day, i'll just break off and had a quarrel.... just hope that it will be after 11nov....

gtg... goodnight

PRCP!!!!

wow... 9 hours from now i'll be in TTSH in my nursing uniform starting my PRCP(Pre-registration-consolidation-programme) so fast... everything seems too fast... years 3 le... going to graduate le....

sometimes i wonder am i the one who had change or people around me change... jus for example someone who i can be so close with last time now seems like a stranger to me. maybe i don't know you well when i first know you ba...

my life seems to go round within my work place... what am i trying to run away from? am i just trying to numb myself or am i really working hard for $$?

what i waited for might be a waste.

i going crazy soon. real crazy... real mad. for the past 6 months i in cold storage, i didnt resign yoshi... i had be trying my very best to give them schedule. even to the extend of once a month. reason is because i want the service excellent award... that is all i had being waiting for. but now, i might not have a chance to get it le... Aziz purposely hide it from me. called ronald in the morning and he told me that they throw away that memo already. then just say counter now no staff and ask me call back later... wth la.... what am i suppose to do? i so so lost and tire now... why had i wasted so many time in yoshi? why am i so stupid? later will be working agin. from 3-1030... just feel tire and i'm lost agin........ lost my directions again. how am i going to get my cert?
next week PRCP starting liao. how prepared am i?

finally updated

well, i'm really too too busy with my work and too crazy with my work until i don't have the time to update my life at all.
my 6 weeks attachment is finally OVER... now i'm "ENJOYING" my holiday....
during this few weeks, so many things happen until i really duno to start from where. haiz... my attachment ended with a surprise grade. didnt expect myself to do well in 11B. but the result came to me and i'm shock... anyway, thanks CI... and my PRCP attachment is out. i'm posted to 7C... i wonder will i be able to perform there... i'm still o fear again.... the fear of starting all over again.... haiz...
next is working... havent been going back to yoshi to work for almost 1 month le... and tmr i'm going back... haizzzzz... and i'll be working at harbourfront.... where all the nightmares and disappointed started. agree to help out aziz. the GWC is now under sharon... and jay... omg la... then i really wonder should i go for the yoshi D&D anot... since i'm not getting the cert and there are so many people who thinks that i had resign and know that i had resign, what for i go right. HAIZZZZZ really hope that my PRCP rooster will save me from going to the D&D ba.
geraldine came to cold storage on monday afternoon. so surprise to see her. but the feeling is no longer so real. its so fake liao. haizzzzzz........