even sleeping for 11 hours, i still feel that my bones is breaking. for the past few day really cannot make it. so many things unable to finish. transferring patient out, admitting patient which is cannot make it de. work until cannot breathe. since start till end no time for meal, staying until 5 to complete my report... working in this environment, how long can i continue?
will be moving back to fourth aunt house this saturday. again moving. had been moving for the last 3 years le. will be moving out to stay soon. most likely begininng of next month ba.. if not, worst come to worst, get that place ready for her first, pay everything first and then delay for another 2 weeks before moving in.... this few months so many things is happening la... 2 close poly friend birthday. my third aunt coming back from aust, my sixth aunt coming back from china..
seeing my friend going to move out soon really make me wonder if i make a right choice. sometimes, i will feel very bad about it. i'm breakin her mother heart. if i dun exist, thing might be better right.... again and again i'm thinking.
do u know that i'm still thinking of you? trying very hard to let u go, but somehow, everything that i do reminds me of u. even something as simply as going to a supermarket to buy things, ppl reminds me of you. you are so popular, i know. but its just... i cant believe it. why should i still think of u when u are not. why should i be holding on when u seems so not be bother. i should have let go of you at the beginning. but i didnt. i must let go of you now, but i can't.
going out with cat is happy. but like what ppl say, we seems more like friends. sometimes i agree. but sometime he make me think twice.
when will i have someone that can care for me? shower me with the care and concern that i want? when? who? i'm still waiting. searching in the middle of the sea. how must i wish it could be pig. dun scold me for being silly. dun scold be for being stupid.
life still have to goes on....
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