happy 2008

happy new year... well, spend my last second of 2007 in yoshinoya... well, its my last day working with william... its also my last day working with tiffany.... in central i really learn alot and change a lot...
2007 is over... so many unhappy things happened 2007...
*things that change my view towards guys...
*realise that some friends can only be hi-bye friends... really upset me alot..
*eileen leaving us and go HGS while waiting central to open
*eileen is not going to transfer to central yet i had to be transfered there
*decide to quit yoshi yet unable to do so
*like someone yet....
*work at central with one sickening manager... super irritating type...
*realise that not everybody can be trusts... there are people who action and words does not match
*working at mussel guys... so many unpleasant memories and got to know that people are very realistic..
*endless quarrel with my parent which make me very tire of life
*parent wrote letter to school demanding them to withdraw me from school of health science
*parent going down to workplace and quarrel with me and even slap me

2007 also leave me alot of happy memories...
*sister got married.....
*brother ROM
*got to know another good manager like geraldine...
*had my first pair of contact lens
*having the loves of my aunts
*aunt make a chocolates cake for my birthday... so nice.. three types of chocolates in 1 cake
*got to know a good friend which now become my mei... jia jia
*working at central with Ube and tiffany... working with tiffiany is dangerous... with the help of her, u can smell like miso soup the whole day...
*got verification for counter and lobby...
*helping out in the ISC night is also another unforgettable and happy even... tire yet fun and challenging
*got a i pod... it had being something i wish to have for a super long time

target for 2008....
*be a stronger person and not so emotion
*get a GPA of 3 for year 2 second semester
*got into crew leader position by feb
*wish to find a mr right
*want to change job in april... after all i had to leave yoshi one day de what, its just a matter if sooner or later
*get new clothes for myself.... don;t wish to keep wearing only few shirt and jeans.. i want to buy some shirt and long jeans
*to cut down my phone bill..

in the year 2007, i really wish to thanks a lot of people which are with me when i'm down... cheer me up when i'm feeling low... heehee... shall name out the peoples name... pls pardon me if i miss out some...
*jia jia--> no words can describe my wonderful jia jia mei... she is a treasure i had found and i'll always treasure my friendship with her...
*YR--> a girl who like yellow and sour things... a girl who can sense that i'm feeling down when i'm in school
*jelly bean(geraldine) --> thanks for letting me understand that things don't go the way we want sometimes but we can't just give up easily... thanks for cheering nad encouraging me whenever i feel like giving up.
*meow meow--> always with me when i'm down... although sometime we quarrel, but our friendship gets stronger after every quarrel is it?
*darling tiffany--> thanks to her, my yoshi day at central is more exciting and fun
*Ube--> my central another good friend... heehee washabe... but he going back Indonesia soon... so sad... but i'm happy for him la... haha
*ade(thanks for helping me especially during exam times)
well i shall end here... its 330am already... got to go to sleep... tomorrow still have to work at crocodile... haizzz... goodnight... wish everyone happy new year and may all your wish come true..
wish myself luck for this new coming year....

saying goodbye 2007,welcoming 2008

so fast, this is the last day of the year already... time really flies... decided not going back HFC, yet i'm still thinking of so many things........
had being working at crocodile for 3 days... conclusion is high paying job is not easy... demand much more then normal job... for example, i work in yoshinoya for the whole and and i won't feel tire... crocodile i work 8 hours, my leg really super tire... the feeling of sitting down is so shiok..... i'm so tire now.. so many feeling that i wish i could release from here yet, to exhausted to type.
i miss HFC, bu she de CTL, yet i plan to go GWC.... what am i trying to do? trying to make myself become a person with no emotion? i really don't know...
a brand new year is coming... am i going to be a brand new person also?
a brand new year coming... this will indicate that i had left home going to 2 years already... i really feel like having a U-turn back to two years ago... if i had given a second chance, i think i wont wan to choose the same route.. i'll not be so stubborn... haizzzzzzzz.... got to go to sleep already... really sleepy now... last night start doing pharmacology from 1am- 3am...now, i'm like super sleepy and tire de la... got to go... goodn1ght

a day at crocodile

today second day working at crocodile warehouse sales already... for all i can say, its super tiring de... legs can break sia... then climb up and down to take clothes of different size and different colour... super tire arrrrrrr.... no wonder they are paying $8 for weekend... there are so many people and its so tiring.......
yesterday got to know a very shocking news... so shocking that i realise i had lost my direction again... after much struggle, i finally decided to go back HFC... finally i had convince william to let me go back... but everythings just change all of a sudden... after seng poh resign, william will also not be the store in charge of central... not sure where he will go... but osman will be taking over... when i get to know this, i'm like, what the f*** la ... worst of all is geraldine will also be leaving HFC going GWC.... then geraldine say that osman is confidence in convincing me to stay CTL, and geraldine ask belinda during that small meeting that if i don't wish to stay, can she bring me over, and belinda was like, u and osman go and settle with it. to say the truth la, i dont feel like going anywhere... i just wish that i had more time for myself... i just wish that i can forget yoshinoya... how much i hope that i didn't even know yoshinoya.... i can say, i had a lot of happy time in yoshi... but i also get hurt a lot of time in yoshi... these wounds can never can heal and it will always be a nightmare to me.... my life will be much better if i didn't know yoshinoya in the first place....

how much i wish i can remake the decision i had made
how much i hope time can stop for me to breathe
how much i hope i can have more times for my friends
how much i hope i can go overseas

so many things that i suppose to do, i never do...

finally finish my attachment yesterday.... school starting soooooonnnnnnnnn

i'm so tire now... feel like giving up

so many things need to do... so many thing i wish to let go yet unable to let go...
how much i wish i could let go of yoshi yet i can;t even take 1 month break
how much i wish i could let go of chinese orchestra yet i can't also...
things that i need to do are so many... i'm totally drained... no more energy to continue...
tomorrow i 7-3 have attachment, then will go straight to school for chinese orchestra...
friday i have attachment from 7-3 also, then will go straight to crocodile warehouse sales...
saturday and sunday will be crocodile... monday yoshi, tuesday crocodile... wednesday school start.... when then can i have time for myself? when then can i go and buy shirts and bags that i like? when then can i have time to go shopping and k box with my friends?
i really hate this kind of life... start to regret leaving my house again... if i'm not so stubborn things won't be so bad for me now right? if i listen to them and take engineering course, life will be much better now right...

decided not to take 1 month break... william is short of crew and geraldine wanted me to go back too... there is a period of time i'm wondering should i stay at CTL or should i go back to HFC... i hate myself why must i think so much... i wonder if i go back HFC, will i be a better person.. if i stay at CTL, will it be better for me... i still decided ti go back HFC because i want people to know that i had change... i'm not the siewling that will throw temper anymore.. i'm not the noisy siewling anymore... but on the other hand, going back i fear that my parent will go there and quarrel with me... so much fear yet i'm not doing anything... i'm just running away from my family problem...

shall end here and go my lala land liao... wahaha...
although life is tough, but i'll continue to work hard
things don't go the way we want sometimes but we cannot just give up easily...
goodnight

busy busy busy days coming

yesterday night requested from wiliiam for 1 month break after after which is 25dec. then he told me that he will allow me to go back hfc end of this month... i'm really tire of this... really really tire... maybe is because i realise how irritating i'm to some people ba... i myself also don't know how to explain this kind of feeling... i really hope i'm not a irritating person to other... maybe i should just continue to stay quiet ba..now my biggest problem is should i go back hfc? or shoulf i just stay at central? have being working at central for 2 months and got to know quite a lot of good person. ube, tiffany, william, huishan.... they all all very nice people to work with.... but what is the use? ube leaving 12jan, tiffany leaving on 1jan, huishan leaving once they have enough staff...
should i stay in central or should i leaving?
should i go back hfc or should i not?i'm just hoping that after this 1month break, i'll be able to let go of yoshinoya ba... i shall start finding new jobs now... mussel guys? no no i'll ot go back and hurt myself anymore.

today onwards i'll be super busy... sister getting married... today will be moving back hougang and back home... wah moving 2 times.. really busy.... wondering what to buy for sister wedding... mickey mouse wedding softtoy, snoopy wedding soft toy or precious moment? i think shall stick to precious moment ba... i believe sister will like that more ba... next few days will be more busy.. sister getting married... won't be blogging for the next few days le... hahaha.... have a nice day everyone...

who am i? where am i suppose to go?

should i give up co? i really don't know. i really feel so sad... this is the first time i feel sad over leaving a cca.... this cca seems very important to me because every tuesday after a long days in school, i'll go for the co and no matter how tire i am, its is the friendliness that cheer me up the whole evening and night. should i give myself one more chance or should i just give up? .... well maybe on the 18dec i'll go one more time and borrow pipa home and practise super hard and even through just perform one song, at least i have make an effort... well maybe that is my last chance before i really give up.... one last chance ok:)

happy things that happen today....
*i manage to get $65++ sales from delivery for yoshinoya today... yeah
*i make contact lens today and found out that my eye degree did not increase... yeah yeah
*i went for eyebrow trimming and it cost my $14
*i bought ice milk tea(kungfutea) and chicken wing
*working with wasabe(ube) today... working with him really cheers my days up... he is so kind like a brother to me:)

unhappy things that happen today....
*working with a sarcastic manager today... super damn piss off with him...
*was waiting for that stupid monica ... so scare that she appear today...
*working with that stupid manager can spoil my who day happy mood... sian...

shall end here liao... goodnight

a new begining or a sad ending?

start a new blog... brand new blog where i don't wish to tell anyone... just wish to have a place to express myself.. maybe will tell one only..
regret of doing so many things... and most of the time, i feel that people find me irritating... am i really irritating? maybe i should just ignore everything around me and don't bother about things around...
feels that life is like a roller coaster for me recently... decided to give up CO is a sad decision i have made... really tire of going there and learn something which i can't perform.... decided to give up CO= giving up public performance... really feel so sad
what does yoshinoya mean to me? who am i in yoshinoya? people offering me higher pay yet why am i staying at a $3.70 pay? just because of belinda or elieen or geraldine? i really don't know... i just drag myself to work... although the people working there are nice people, but i just don't learn anything.... everyday do the same old thing and its tiring me out.... what the use of staying when the heart is not there... worst still when the heart is dead.... daily sales of $1000 worst is $800++.. really boring de... feel like giving up also.. but why am i hanging on?
school fee had been deducted from my father CPF... should i be happy? no... this mean more trouble and more interest that will be charge when i graduate... as her for the $$ yet she drag to this month end again... this is one big lesson never lent people $... as the day went by, i'm getting more and more disappointment as the days went by...
shall end here...
goodnight=_=