finally its over

hi club performance is over... i make a mistake during the performance... winnie, i'm sorry(although she dun have my blog, i still want to say sorry)
having bad sore throat and bad block nose now.. hope tomorrow will be a better day ba...

why can't i be stronger?

yesterday skip class and go yoshinoya to work... cause they say the japanese coming... end up never come.... then today is my NR retest and i think i'll be able to pass la... passing should not be a problem.... wahaha
getting more and more can't be bother with my group of friends.... i don't know how to be as cheerful as last time... coming to school each day become more and more draggy....
today NR retest and when i woke up, i'm a bit late but i still make an effort to call shan... she reply me saying she wake up le but end up she didn't turn up for the test... i really so disappointed with her la... i make a effort to call her even though i'm going to be late liao, yet she still didn't come to school.... haizzzzzzz.......
feel more and more tire of life... having a terrible sore throat now....
16 days had pass... yet still no news... am i still waiting or have i given up hopes?

once a home yet now a strange place.

so many days unable to online. really too busy with yoshinoya until i really can't breathe .
after working on thurday, friday i start work at 12 to 8 plus.... then yesterday 12 to close... so tire cause they keep saying japanese might come.... then yesterday i lost my phone. because after closing i sit outside and wait for geraldine. then i think my phone drop out or something and i didn't notice it. when i board the bus, i realise that my phone not with me. so i thought i left it at store.. last night slept at 1 plus wake up at 7... went to gwc. reach there at 830.. then i realise that my phone not in the store. then i start calling my phone.... really feel so lucky that a kind kind person had found my phone, charge it so that it will not switch off, then waiting for my call.... so went down to collect my phone. i'm so lucky......
then went to HFC for attachment because the japanese will be there.......then everything was quite ok lor... got A for HFC... but the place which is once a home for me now had become a strange place for me now.... haizzzzz...... cant be bother. after all now i'm a GWC crew now:).
got to go slp liao....

my aunt talk to me abt my result again.... so stress up..

tmr practical exam so more.....

it has been 13 days since he left yet there is still no news from him.... wondering how is he...

today lucky is 'his' off day... went to HFC for attachment but so scare to work with him... am i feel with hatred for him now? i duno...

so sad that aunty linda is off on sunday.,... didn't manage to see her today.... but i saw my cute cute uncle chong.... wow... he is a super good uncle....

so sleepy

today my mei got her o level result for chinese... so happy for her... yeah... she got her result that she wants and she is able to take her higher mother tongue this year...
really so happy for her... yeah....
today went to work because geraldine down staff... really poor thing... whole night only have 3 crew including me.... then i realise that working with kamachy is more and more unhappy... today nothing much but she is always on the phone. she is always on her handphone chatting away..... somehow i feel how could she be a manager when she just ignore her shift... shall not say much about this and i shall just see... i believe one day she will get caught by the manager de...
yeah yeah,.... today got my bonus... so are all the managers.. yet she never sms me to tell me that she want to return the money... i really start to suspect that she is using the money for herself and not father....
shall end here cause really tire today... hope everything will goes well tomorrow...

did i overwork or am i too weak?

somehow i realise that i had lost interest in a lot of things recently. surfing net, working and a lot more things that i enjoy doing last time.

yesterday is my last day at crocodile warehouse sales... yo, i'm so happy... after that went to eat no signature de chili crab and pepper crab... yummy yumm... then fourth aunt drive me home and she also give me a hongbao ask me to give fourth aunt. end up, when she reach home, she sms me and tell me that hongbao is for me... feel so happy at the same time guilty. the reason why i dun want to take money from aunt this few years is because i feel that because of me, my aunt and my parent relationship become worst and i'm the cause of it. and if now i still take the money from them, i feel like as if i'm using them like that. i duno how to say la, but..... haizzzz.
this few weeks i had to buy at least 2 more shirt as all my shirt is like cannot make it liao... really got to buy at least 3 piece of shirt.


today after class, went for hi club... really enjoy a lot. then today we do the formation of the performance... its so fun... really enjoy going hi club...

today handed in the sickening nursing research assignment. pass few days had been really stress up over this individual assignment. start to dislike one of my friend... i tell myself last time that its because she too stress up that time so she is unreasonable. but yesterday and today, i got so piss off by her... its like... the article that i'm doing, she say cannot. then yunru and ade say can. worst still i had done 90% of the assignment and i was just doing the touch up on the font. then she keep insisting that the article i use cannot.... really feel so irritating... then today saw this person. then she ask again. cause last night i told her today i'll go find the lecturer and ask but i didn't because too tire. then i saw her and she ask if i got ask the lecturer anot. she think that my article cannot leh. i was like so tire and finish my assignment and she keep saying my article cannot be use.. its kind of irritating la... so what if hers can? i just feel so irritated...

down with one more assignment. i'll work hard no matter what happen.

what am i doing?

today my first day formally start work at great world city... was actually quite looking forward.. work with geraldine in morning and kamachy in the afternoon... everything was quite ok except for night time, dinner rush jam. kitchen jam order... down beef... then first day working, i saw john... he is the area in charge for great world city... haha, after he left harbourfront, i had been with jay, then william... now back to him again... he is still the same... anyway, i scare him today. i was cleaning the below counter shelf then the aunty greet irashamase. then i follow... louder of
course but i never raise my head up cause i thought its just a customer. he got scare because he hear my voice but never see me... wahaha... really lucky sia, first day i work at great world he come down, first time he saw me at great world he got scare by me.... wahaha. then geraldine ask me to help her on 29 jan cause japanese coming. haiz... why everytime got this kind of things geraldine will look for me leh... then i see her so stress up, i agree....

what am i trying to do? i decided to skip lesson so as to help out on my part time job... shouldn't i take school as priority? exams are coming yet my revision was like not making any progress... NR need to hand up by monday yet i dont know what to do.... what's wrong with me? where is the siewling that is very enthu in studies gone to? secondary sch time, i love study. i'll reach school 30-45 minutes eariler..sec school reault make me feel proud of myself.... what wrong with me now? hardly reach school on time, results cannot make it... can even get a AD at all....

chinese new year coming yet i didn't know what to do... will be working throughout first to fourth day of chinese new year... reunion dinner, what will i be wearing? new year will i be buying new clothes? i feel so stress up whenever new year is near the corner.... i feel so stress up....

today is the fifth day he went back indonesia. still i didn't receive any sms or call from him... so disappointed... well that is life maybe... friends come and go....

stress+sad

recently so many things going on around me... NR project was like draining everyone out... after CO performance, i thought i can have a good rest. however that was not the case... i spend even more times doing assignment...
friends around me also become very busy. jia is busy with her preparation for o level. i miss the time chatting with her in the night. I really hope our friendship will last... i think i'm thinking too much again
everyone around me, including me seems so busy with NR and its like after reading for few times, i still duno what to do for my literature review. i really hope i can get over NR soon... i always lost my interest in studies whenever i do my NR. i start to wonder, is this what am i suppose to do after graduate? i feel so stress up and sad over so many things...

-i hope that my elder sister will be fine
- i hope my family staying at the new place will get use to it and actually i'm quite worry abt their safety
-i hope friday i'll be start to work at GWC yoshi. hope everything will goes well for me.
-hope jia revision will goes well for her
-i hope that my NR project will be over soon
-i hope i can go out shopping with jia soon
-i hope my exam will never come...