what am i doing?

today my first day formally start work at great world city... was actually quite looking forward.. work with geraldine in morning and kamachy in the afternoon... everything was quite ok except for night time, dinner rush jam. kitchen jam order... down beef... then first day working, i saw john... he is the area in charge for great world city... haha, after he left harbourfront, i had been with jay, then william... now back to him again... he is still the same... anyway, i scare him today. i was cleaning the below counter shelf then the aunty greet irashamase. then i follow... louder of
course but i never raise my head up cause i thought its just a customer. he got scare because he hear my voice but never see me... wahaha... really lucky sia, first day i work at great world he come down, first time he saw me at great world he got scare by me.... wahaha. then geraldine ask me to help her on 29 jan cause japanese coming. haiz... why everytime got this kind of things geraldine will look for me leh... then i see her so stress up, i agree....

what am i trying to do? i decided to skip lesson so as to help out on my part time job... shouldn't i take school as priority? exams are coming yet my revision was like not making any progress... NR need to hand up by monday yet i dont know what to do.... what's wrong with me? where is the siewling that is very enthu in studies gone to? secondary sch time, i love study. i'll reach school 30-45 minutes eariler..sec school reault make me feel proud of myself.... what wrong with me now? hardly reach school on time, results cannot make it... can even get a AD at all....

chinese new year coming yet i didn't know what to do... will be working throughout first to fourth day of chinese new year... reunion dinner, what will i be wearing? new year will i be buying new clothes? i feel so stress up whenever new year is near the corner.... i feel so stress up....

today is the fifth day he went back indonesia. still i didn't receive any sms or call from him... so disappointed... well that is life maybe... friends come and go....