so many days i had went missing. this week is full of excitement for me. taken my step out... i started a new job... yeah yeah... cashier at cold storage. although it is really tough remembering the code for different vegetables and fruit. but i'll continue to work hard and memorise de. wow, this coming tuesday i'll start doing cashier myself. no more packer and no more using janis counter le. i'll have my own counter... really looking forward. although at time i still miss .... but after what happen today, i realise that my heart is dead. in yoshinoya, my heart is dead...
really so mad until i cry just now. i start work at 12.. took 1 hour break at 2. then start at 245. by right i can go home @ 9pm because tmr japanese visit. but i tell them i'll help out till 10 because just now down rice and alot of customer. At 10, i told lai that i want to go back. then she say i need to finish the housekeeping before i can go. cleaning the glass door, mirror, and the signboard..... tmr i work at 9 leh. what is going on i just be good girl and extend 1 hour yet u are wanting more. i can't stand this.. this is too much... another thing that mad me real mad is i told geraldine my schedule for this weekend and tell her to confirm with me again yesterday. yet, i'm still the on who need to take the initiative to call and ask her. am i really that important to her? until now my name is still under central. who bother to make the amendment? no one. really going mad. why must she try her best to take me to great world city yet now, i'm just like a stray dog. no sense of belonging at all. name under central, working at great world, sometimes being attach to bugis... i try my very best to work hard hoping that i can get the chance to go kitchen. yet the harder i work, what i did in the end? MAILER MAILER AND MAILER... so many times i say i want to go for chicken and beef seminar. you know that march i have attachment yet you intend to put my name for the seminars. i told u april i want to go yet it seems like... well u did not register me for the courses again.
times and times i told myself not to blame you cause you are tire and busy. how many times can i tell that to myself? i'm tired... really sick and tire. going to work knowing that i can only do counter lobby and mailer. have being doing this for 2 years plus. i had enough of it le. this time, there is nothing that can change my decision. i dun want to learn kitchen anymore. i dun want to be crew leader. i'll give up the chance of getting service excellent silver award. i'll give up the cert for the course that i had attend. you knew that i can't get along with mdn kho, yet u asking me to give mailer only. why cant u ask us to go. take turns to go. why am i the only one doing counter cum lobby cum mailer? why am i the one doing housekeeping and she dun need to do? are u fair to me? no you are not. there is no way i will change my mind this time. to you, maybe only the indonesian crew is the most impt ba. i'm nothing to you.
very tire le. shall stop here.. goodnight
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