i can't be bother

life is always the same. pack pack pack. nowadays, i realise i just cant be bother with friends around me. what they want to do and what they did that i don't like. i realise that i wont comment on things that i'm unhappy anymore.

friday when working at yoshi, i saw someone. someone who reminds me of the past. the hidden past. i wonder for a sec whether should i say hi to her. i did in the end. and had a small chat with her. so many memories flash back. secondary 3 life. those things that happen that make me change so much. things that make me understand that i can't trust anyone including good friend. things that make me learn that there is no one that that will treat each other truly. well, i had to learn how to hide all my feeling in front of my friends. i miss the sec 2 me... since sec 3 till now, i still can't find back the old me who had much more trust in friend. that fight, that exams, and that habit i had.. it all started with her and "L" its times for me to let go. but can i really let go? going to 5 years le yet i still dream of those days sometimes... omg... sound horrible, but the image will flash through my dream sometimes.


brother wedding is finally over. yeah....

i did something very bad just now. i know this will cause another quarrel but i just don't like. ya, i'm bad. i'm stubborn. i'm bad temper. but that is me. so be it. i can't be bother... still prefer to live in my own world.