only one word can describe my life recently. SIAN.. work work work and assignment assignment assignment... today saw CL again... feel so.. argghhhh... haizzzz. still ate with him during lunch time... really sian de la..
to say frankly, really feel like giving up in cold storage... the people there are nice, the work there i can handle, but i'm just afraid it will turn out to be second yoshinoya. will i get too attach to the ppl and work there to the extend that i dun want to resign after grad? i start to worry.... and can the people there be trust?? i start to wonder even more this week...
seeing that a few will resign soon, i feel real sad....maybe i should go also?
i'm too stress up over my school work.... so many thing i need to do yet i dun have the time and i dun have the energy to do so. if oi withdraw from nursing now what will happen? will i regret? for sure is my aunt will be very disappointed... haizzzz
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
stressful and tire
life had being super stressful... firstly the impact of failing 2 module common test out of 3 common test really make me feel like withdrawing from nursing... really want to give up.. what is the use of making myself so stress and tire?
then yoshinoya recently also the other problem for me. geraldine had been sms me for the past 2 day asking me when i can work next week... really duno how to reply her... feel so bad but when think back, i'm not at fault also what. if at the beginning you all know how to appreciate staff that work hard, things won't turn out this way le right...cuimin, mdm kho and me won't had left for a better job. i wonder what will happen if i still don't reply her.. will she hold my pay?
next week got 2 major assignment due...
WPD reflective journal, DD also due soon... must start le... 10 page report leh... furthermore i fail that module during common test... must really work hard on that assignment to pull up my mark...
next week onwards, every saturday will have remedial classes for NS5... feel like secondary school time wor... but really hope can get over that asap...
got to cut my working hours at cold storage liao... really need more time to focus on studies le...
btw, today $$ tally again... so happy...
yesterday took a bus and pass by my secondary school... i really miss secondary school time badly.. attending math lesson is the best... everything seems so easy... for physics class, i'll never forget Mr Tan Puay Eng saying "physics is so easy" POA class, Mr Lee(LKC) saying "POA is so logic.." Ms solastri class everyone so stress... i really miss secondary school time... if time can go back, i'll choose to go back sec sch time.
i wonder if time can go back to when i just enter nursing, will i still take the same path, choose to work and study at the same time or will i sign up bond? will i still be emotional and stay at yoshinoya?
i really regret choose to work at yoshinoya while waiting for o level result. if i had chosen a higher pay job, will i be so stress over $$ now?
find life is so meaningless. its just about work and studies... wanting to get good result and manage work at the same time... so tiree.........
then yoshinoya recently also the other problem for me. geraldine had been sms me for the past 2 day asking me when i can work next week... really duno how to reply her... feel so bad but when think back, i'm not at fault also what. if at the beginning you all know how to appreciate staff that work hard, things won't turn out this way le right...cuimin, mdm kho and me won't had left for a better job. i wonder what will happen if i still don't reply her.. will she hold my pay?
next week got 2 major assignment due...
WPD reflective journal, DD also due soon... must start le... 10 page report leh... furthermore i fail that module during common test... must really work hard on that assignment to pull up my mark...
next week onwards, every saturday will have remedial classes for NS5... feel like secondary school time wor... but really hope can get over that asap...
got to cut my working hours at cold storage liao... really need more time to focus on studies le...
btw, today $$ tally again... so happy...
yesterday took a bus and pass by my secondary school... i really miss secondary school time badly.. attending math lesson is the best... everything seems so easy... for physics class, i'll never forget Mr Tan Puay Eng saying "physics is so easy" POA class, Mr Lee(LKC) saying "POA is so logic.." Ms solastri class everyone so stress... i really miss secondary school time... if time can go back, i'll choose to go back sec sch time.
i wonder if time can go back to when i just enter nursing, will i still take the same path, choose to work and study at the same time or will i sign up bond? will i still be emotional and stay at yoshinoya?
i really regret choose to work at yoshinoya while waiting for o level result. if i had chosen a higher pay job, will i be so stress over $$ now?
find life is so meaningless. its just about work and studies... wanting to get good result and manage work at the same time... so tiree.........
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
time is the thing i need
right now, turning on my lappy wanting to continue my nursing management assignment. but my mind is now blank... result from being too tire ba....
yesterday early morning recieve miss call from cold storage... called back thinking that its was about the $ 50 missing other gift voucher. so i called back. but no la... they are asking if i can work yesterday night. but i say cannot because was planing to do the assignment.
but guess what... geraldine called and ask me to go help because japanese was in singapore and she really dun have anymore strong staff. mdn kho resign, cuimin thingy..... so she ask me to help. and what to do... i must be crazy and out of mind... i agree... i reject a $6/hr job and agree to work for $3.70/hr job. was so angry with myself. why must i be so emotional and why must i be so soft hearted.... i reach great world city and ronald pass me the payslip... why must i about to resign le then they will transfer me to great world city? i had been there for 4 months plus and they never bother to do a transfer from clarke quay to great world for me. nobody bother to ask. now i want to resign le then you all treat me so well. i don't need that.
i'm so happy at cold storage now. compare to yoshinoya, i rather stay at cold storage. yoshinoya people had hurt me so much. esp harbourfront and great world city. the scar is there and nothing can be done to make it heal anymore. trusting and waiting.... i dun have that much time to wait anymore. 6 more months left and this will mean that i can never be able to reach the level i want. so what for staying there. do you think i'll still believe you when you say that i'll get promoted to crew leader? i had given up hopes. i rather choose something where i can earn more within this 6 months..... and i'm glad i did that because i get to know someone of the same kind from cold storage....
gotta continue my assignment liao... hope i can finish by tonight ba,......
yesterday early morning recieve miss call from cold storage... called back thinking that its was about the $ 50 missing other gift voucher. so i called back. but no la... they are asking if i can work yesterday night. but i say cannot because was planing to do the assignment.
but guess what... geraldine called and ask me to go help because japanese was in singapore and she really dun have anymore strong staff. mdn kho resign, cuimin thingy..... so she ask me to help. and what to do... i must be crazy and out of mind... i agree... i reject a $6/hr job and agree to work for $3.70/hr job. was so angry with myself. why must i be so emotional and why must i be so soft hearted.... i reach great world city and ronald pass me the payslip... why must i about to resign le then they will transfer me to great world city? i had been there for 4 months plus and they never bother to do a transfer from clarke quay to great world for me. nobody bother to ask. now i want to resign le then you all treat me so well. i don't need that.
i'm so happy at cold storage now. compare to yoshinoya, i rather stay at cold storage. yoshinoya people had hurt me so much. esp harbourfront and great world city. the scar is there and nothing can be done to make it heal anymore. trusting and waiting.... i dun have that much time to wait anymore. 6 more months left and this will mean that i can never be able to reach the level i want. so what for staying there. do you think i'll still believe you when you say that i'll get promoted to crew leader? i had given up hopes. i rather choose something where i can earn more within this 6 months..... and i'm glad i did that because i get to know someone of the same kind from cold storage....
gotta continue my assignment liao... hope i can finish by tonight ba,......
Sunday, June 22, 2008
OMG>>> SCHOOL STARTING>>>
2 week of term break had ended... yeah.. "TERM BREAK"... what have i done during these 2 week? practically nothing la.... working, projecting....
feel so lifeless recently... nothing seems to make me active... feel so down... although try to be hyperactive.... but is it the real hyperactive?....... so many things i need to do next week... can i finish them all?
WPD assignment
nursing management challenge question
nursing management assignment
still have that stupid research thingy... still have tampines and yishun
next week moving house somemore
working on 2 weekends... one full shift and got 1 day one shift....
how am i going to handle all this....so strESS
feel so lifeless recently... nothing seems to make me active... feel so down... although try to be hyperactive.... but is it the real hyperactive?....... so many things i need to do next week... can i finish them all?
WPD assignment
nursing management challenge question
nursing management assignment
still have that stupid research thingy... still have tampines and yishun
next week moving house somemore
working on 2 weekends... one full shift and got 1 day one shift....
how am i going to handle all this....so strESS
Monday, June 16, 2008
HAPPY:)
this few day dont need to work... practically slacking at home playing viwawa.. hehe... that sushi and match it game..... first time out of the 2 year i can slack for continuous 2 days... tmr morning need to work liao... but 4 hours only la...
this week project at hougang.... so gd la... 30 min before the meeting time then i left house... although i know for most of them, they are real tire... must jia you wor.... travellers' joy JIA YOU....
today early in the morning recieve a sms from geraldine... then i called her and chat for almost 30 min.... so many things happen in just 2 week time... but i really enjoy the 2 weeks of break i took from yoshi la... and best thing is this week i dun need go back also... so total 3 week away from yoshi... yeah... next week need to work liao... so sad.... i wonder why she give up the award... since she got the award, why don't she stay until she get the award....
then next week i moving house also... OMG... i'll be traveling from bukit panjang to kovan to work.... i wonder how will my working hours be like next week..... hope can get more hours ba....
this week project at hougang.... so gd la... 30 min before the meeting time then i left house... although i know for most of them, they are real tire... must jia you wor.... travellers' joy JIA YOU....
today early in the morning recieve a sms from geraldine... then i called her and chat for almost 30 min.... so many things happen in just 2 week time... but i really enjoy the 2 weeks of break i took from yoshi la... and best thing is this week i dun need go back also... so total 3 week away from yoshi... yeah... next week need to work liao... so sad.... i wonder why she give up the award... since she got the award, why don't she stay until she get the award....
then next week i moving house also... OMG... i'll be traveling from bukit panjang to kovan to work.... i wonder how will my working hours be like next week..... hope can get more hours ba....
decision
haha... decided... shall not quit cold storage... this is my final year... if i keep working so much, i might neglect my studies... since cold storage gave me so short hour, at least i can have more time for myself right... wahaha... last night really abit mood swing.. haha... i shall stay at cold storage ba... yohooooohoo got to go out le.... projects again... hope i can happy projecting ba
Sunday, June 15, 2008
whats happening?
i can't believe it. i have an intention to change job. its just 2 month ago i found this job and now i have a intention to find another one. what's wrong with me? last time i hate changes. that's why i still at yoshi for 2 year.. unwilling to adapt to new environment, unwilling to learn new things. but i finally took out that step out and now i'm thinking to start all over again at a new place... i must be crazy le right... then today someone told me something which i think wake me up... and i learn something too la... last time when i use to teach counter crews in yoshi, i hate ppl who just learn and just when they are stable, they left... but that is what i'm going to do.... how will those people who taught me before feel?
but on the other hand, one of the reason why i want to left yoshi is also because of money... i need money... not only to spend, but also to pay my school fee. that is why i work so hard at cold storage. forcing myself to work at the beginning because at first, it is really tough. i got to force myself to learn fast. the forcing myself to adapt the place. the main reason is i want to earn more $$. agreeing to work full shift, wanting to work full shift... how much i wish i could be other, going out on weekend... but still i work... now is holiday and it is the best time for me to earn half of my school fee for next sem... although with that stupid project, i still can work... but.... what will i be doing next week? slacking... i dun wan... i need $... but they dun need part time that much le.... i know that. but what am i suppose to do now? school fee will be deducting soon and here i am cannot work... i really feel very irritated.. at yoshi, i feel that i'm just a ball.. which outlet need me for PQC or to push up the sales, they will put me there for attachment. till now, although i had being working at great world for so many months, my name is still under clarke quay.. so what i get good comment from service i have given to customer? NO USE... at cold storage, i feel like a spare tyre... when they are short of staff, i can work.. when they need staff, my working hour will be cut... is this what a part timer deserve?
i want to quit... but i cant..... and i dun feel like quitting.... sound so crazy....
what am i suppose to do? what can i do? i'm so lost... so tire...
can tell me what to do?
but on the other hand, one of the reason why i want to left yoshi is also because of money... i need money... not only to spend, but also to pay my school fee. that is why i work so hard at cold storage. forcing myself to work at the beginning because at first, it is really tough. i got to force myself to learn fast. the forcing myself to adapt the place. the main reason is i want to earn more $$. agreeing to work full shift, wanting to work full shift... how much i wish i could be other, going out on weekend... but still i work... now is holiday and it is the best time for me to earn half of my school fee for next sem... although with that stupid project, i still can work... but.... what will i be doing next week? slacking... i dun wan... i need $... but they dun need part time that much le.... i know that. but what am i suppose to do now? school fee will be deducting soon and here i am cannot work... i really feel very irritated.. at yoshi, i feel that i'm just a ball.. which outlet need me for PQC or to push up the sales, they will put me there for attachment. till now, although i had being working at great world for so many months, my name is still under clarke quay.. so what i get good comment from service i have given to customer? NO USE... at cold storage, i feel like a spare tyre... when they are short of staff, i can work.. when they need staff, my working hour will be cut... is this what a part timer deserve?
i want to quit... but i cant..... and i dun feel like quitting.... sound so crazy....
what am i suppose to do? what can i do? i'm so lost... so tire...
can tell me what to do?
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